I broke up with him a couple of weeks ago, and I still love him. That’s what makes this feel so strange. I didn’t leave because my feelings had disappeared. I left because I wasn’t getting the effort and attention I needed.
He said he wished it weren’t this way. Then he accepted it pretty quickly. I had made the decision, but it still hurt to feel how easily he could let me go.
I took his response to mean he was okay with the breakup. Maybe unhappy about it, but willing to leave things there. There wasn’t much else for me to go on.
Now he’s liking my posts.
It’s such a small thing to be confused by. A like takes almost no effort, and I know it doesn’t come with an explanation. Still, seeing his name makes me pause. A few weeks ago, I was trying to understand why I didn’t feel enough attention from him. Now there’s this little bit of attention, arriving after I’ve left.
I don’t know whether it’s habit, friendliness, lingering affection, or something he barely thinks about. I don’t know if he realizes I notice.
Nothing about those likes tells me whether he wants to talk or whether anything between us would be different. But I still love him, so they don’t feel entirely casual on my end.
He seemed to accept that we were over. When his name appears under another post, I’m left wondering what, if anything, he means by being there.
