My partner and I have an intimate endurance game: we see how long I can keep enjoying the attention before I tap out. It’s consensual, it’s fun, and I have managed to turn it into a sporting event with no governing body.
I can experience repeated orgasms, so in theory I feel capable of lasting indefinitely. In practice, I keep being the one who calls time. Our ongoing challenge is whether I can outlast my partner’s stamina before reaching my own limit.
Toward the end, I become very relaxed and drift into an absorbed, floaty state. While I’m there, continuing seems entirely possible. My competitive ambitions remain intact, even when the rest of me has largely clocked out.
Then my partner says something that brings my attention sharply back, and suddenly I’m done. I tap out. Once again, a promising campaign ends with a verbal intervention.
I’m enjoying all of this. That’s part of what makes my determination slightly ridiculous: the game is already going well, and I’m still interested in improving my standings.
What I’m curious about is the mental side. Could meditation or better focus help me stay in that relaxed state, while still recognizing and respecting my limits? Have other people found that their concentration improves with experience?
I’d like to hear from someone who’s managed it. Preferably someone with a winning record.
